Free Write: Fears of Teaching

I got into the teaching program at Southern Connecticut State University in March of 2013. I started taking teaching classes in the fall of the same year. So far being taught how to teach has been interesting but I still feel like I have a shadow hanging over me. Professors are positive and sure that the skills that they are teaching us will work and we will be efficient, outstanding educators. This is what I doubt. What if literacy circles don't work with my class? Will reader's workshop help my students to be successful? From the reading that I have read by teachers that have been using these skills for years say that these techniques work. But at the same time I have read about classes that had to be adapted to fit a classroom that could not have learned anything from the traditional class set. There are so many variables with classrooms that can change the way we need to teach. A literacy centers class may work with a suburban class of seventeen. On the other hand it would not work with an urban class of twenty-five. One of the articles that we read talked about how the teacher need to adapt literature circles because her students could not stay on task. This is what I'm afraid of. It is hard to get jobs in small towns with small classrooms and supportive parents. Many teaching graduates get whatever job they can get even in urban areas. I know that Southern has one of the best teaching programs in the state but I'm still not sure of myself. Hopefully as I finish the program I will become more sure of myself. Despite all these thoughts and all of my doubts I will adapt for my students and become successful in the end.